HW;78 kg, SW:69,5 kg, CW:52 kg
GW:55 kg✅UGW:50 kg
I am 1,64 cm, and 22 years old.
1. to have cheekbones finally
2. to be smaller around my body
3. to get a thigh gap
4. to get rid of my tummy rolls & double chin
5. to wear tight-fitted clothes
6. to be more confident standing in front of my class
7. to fit more especially in skinny jeans
8. to make myself & parents proud
9. to be less introverted & more a outgoing person
10. to feel not fat anymore
💭When my gf said she’d noticed i’d been losing weight
💭The euphoria of stepping on the scale and seeing the number go down
💭Beggining to see that thigh gap
💭Looking thin in shorts when summer comes
💭Not having my stomachs poking out the top of my jeans
💭Flat stomach in a tight body suit
💭Small wrists
💭Little ankles
💭Big hoodies hanging off my body
💭Buying size zero when I shop
the biggest motivation for me is the fact that I’ve never seen myself skinny
so I don’t know what I’ll look like
I don’t know if my hip bones are pointed or if they’re more rounded
I don’t know if I’ll have a wide or a narrow thigh gap
I don’t know if my rib cage is tapered or straight
but I’m going to find out when I see them
This is… Really cool. Learning the shape of your own skeleton.
so interesting but also fucked up that we’re all fascinated by this lol
^^ it honestly is
Things that I desire more than food
Eat that slice of pizza or have a thigh gap?
Eat that extra cookie or have a jawline?
Eat some pasta or be able to count your ribs?
Eat that piece of cake or be able to put your hands around your arm?
Eat some chips or have boney hands?
Eat that burger or have a tiny waist?
Meat fries or be able to see your hipbones?
🌹Chest and collar bones are so prominent
🌹My stomach goes in rather than sticking out
🌹I fit so well into size small and 0
🌹My clothes hang of my body daintily
🌹Gained more of a thigh gap
🌹Wrists have gotten so much smaller
🌹More defined cheekbones, looks like I’m always wearing contour
🌹Gained so much self control
🌹Am generally smiling a lot more
So try and tell me it’s not worth it
Eat that slice of pizza or have a thigh gap?
Eat that extra cookie or have a jawline?
Eat some pasta or be able to count your ribs?
Eat that piece of cake or be able to put your hands around your arm?
Eat some chips or have boney hands?
Eat that burger or have a tiny waist?
Meat fries or be able to see your hipbones?
🌹Chest and collar bones are so prominent
🌹My stomach goes in rather than sticking out
🌹I fit so well into size small and 0
🌹My clothes hang of my body daintily
🌹Gained more of a thigh gap
🌹Wrists have gotten so much smaller
🌹More defined cheekbones, looks like I’m always wearing contour
🌹Gained so much self control
🌹Am generally smiling a lot more
So try and tell me it’s not worth it
You want them to be able to put their hands around your waist when you cant even fit your hand around your wrist.
You want to go days without eating when you can hardly do 24 hours.
You want hipbones and you can barely see your ribs.
You want a thigh gap but you cant see past your stomach.
You want to be thin and dainty.
But you have no patience.
Things take time.
But youre so impatient that you think after a week that nothing is going to change.
So you binge.
Then you start up again.
And you stop and binge.
You have a recurring habit when you dont see results fast enough and you need to stop.
Stick to your plan for a day
Stick to your plan every day until those days become a week.
And then two weeks.
Then a month.
Then you start getting the results you want.
First, you could fit your thumb and middle finger around your wrist, three months in and now its your thumb and your pinky. With space in between.
First, twenty four whole hours of starving was torture,
Three months in and the pains are your drug.
First, you had a stomach you felt embarrassed in.
Three months in and all ribs are visible and your hipbones stand out through your jeans.
First, you wore holes in your jeans with the rubbing of your thighs, the dark marks on your skin from the rashes when you wore skirts were a constant reminder of your struggle.
Three months in and your legs are elegant, they no longer rub together and you feel free.
Impatience is one of my biggest problems
Patience is also my biggest problem, I want to see results right away.
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